Why how

Sometimes i wonder why? Why did he leave? Why do i miss him? Why does this keep happening to me? Then it becomes clear with how. How can i go on? How can i be happy again? How can i find me? Living life is hard and frustrating i wonder everyday why i feel this way and how to make it better. Life takes time i just hope i find mine by the end.

Perfect little girl

What is perfect? As a little girl shown how to be thin, popular, always having to have something new and perfect. As a little girl she wasn't perfect. Having my family torn apart loosing my best friend. It such a tired game that we play. Long hair and sweet attitude just a little girl wanting to fit in. Next few years go by she cuts her hair off changes the attitude to fit how others treat her not wanting to be noticed. Not wanting to be seen, tainted, or get any taller or bigger in the hips. More years go by as she tries to be herself and make others happy realizing it will never happen she is who she is. Tall, heavy set, strong, manly attitude, and doesn't take shit from anyone. She will never turn her back on herself again. She is free.

Standing Still

A broken piece of the road lies in front of me if I step one it I will fall. But going around is unknown and I could die. If I play this safe will I make it out? I watched you die, I heard you cry, you never thought of anyone else you just saw our pain. I'll never take another step, I'll never run away. I'll stay put and never forgive being ashamed I am afraid to run away. Do I step forward?

Sleep

As I lie awake at night waiting for my melatonin to dissolve in my mouth. It's strawberry flavor quivers over my tongue absorbing into my body trying to make me sleep. Will it succeed, will it make me tired and shut off my thoughts. These thoughts that keep me up, that drive me mad. Will this strawberry flavor pill take be off to dream land, or will it fail to send me away yet again. Is the mind to powerful to be over taken by the medicine, to take the thoughts away, to turn them off for some sleep. Yes sleep how long has it been sense I've enjoyed your sweet company.