Jekyll and Hyde

All I'm trying to do is live my life, but there is a demon inside.
I'm supposed to be happy wearing a smile.
All this anger inside myself.
I can't just live my life.

It's so cold, I've got rocks in my head rolling around.
There is so much weight on my shoulders.
All I'm trying to do is live my life, with a demon inside.
This story is getting old, while my heart is getting colder.

Everyone I know has a demon inside.
Just like being Jekyll and Hyde.
If we weren't so infected by the madness could we ever face the pain.
All I'm trying to do is live my life, with a demon inside.

Wear that smile on my face just like Jekyll and Hyde.
There is a demon inside.
All this anger inside.
There is just too much weight on my shoulders.

Can't you help me

I can't escape myself. As I try the chains get tighter and tighter. So what if you can see the dark inside of me there is no saving me. I am lost. Lost to all. Somebody help me thru this nightmare I can't help myself. I can't escape this hell I've caused. It's not the real me can't you see. Don't you see the animal I have become. Can't you help me.

I don't hate you

This world has forgotten.

There is no time like the present.

So tell me now if this isn't love.

Cause I don't know.

That's when I told you that I love you.

The day breaks on. Like a hurricane.

That's when I said I don't hate you I just want to save you.

The questions we still have.

One thousand miles our way.

We never had a choice.

There is just to much noise.

It takes us under once again.

I don't hate you.

So tell me now how do we get out.

I don't know.

I just want to save you while there is still something left to save.

Dead I am

Dead I am the sky watching angels slowly die.
Dead I am the rat chasing the cat.
Strangle as the breeze.
We can watch you bleed where there is no need.

Dig thru the bitches slam thru the ditchs.
Feel like an animal.
Dead I am the life watching as you bleed.
Dead I am the dog devil on your back.

Do it. Do it.
Burn like an animal
Dead I am the devil watch angels cry.
Dead I am the rat feasting on the cat.

Angel eyes

Take my breath. You can have whatever is left
Let me inside. I won't hold back this time.
Your angel eyes, but your dark touch
More than paralyzed. I don't care how many times it takes.
You've got power over me. I gravitate towards you.
To get through to you. It a voice that not even God can stop.
Take my breath. Baby reach inside my chest.
Your fucking mine. Let me inside. Paralyzed.
You can't hide with those angel eyes.
Watch out the devil is inside.
This a voice that I can not defeat. Such a deep disguise.

In your Hate I have found God.
In your Sin I have found Love.
In your Faith I have found Forgiveness.

Damned

Tonight your so alone your sorrow taking ahold. My touch used to bring you back from the dark, but now your slipping through the cracks. I'm dreaming of the way your used to be. Your falling inside the black.

"Don't leave me here like this. Don't leave me alone. I'm falling to the depths, slipping through the cracks can I ever go back. Dreaming of the way we used to be. Can you hear me? I need your touch, your love, your everything."

Taking you away from here. Is it impossible. I've been fighting for you for a long time now, while drowning in a river of denial. It's a dark seen. I've given up everything for you. Something tells me to leave, but I won't. We started out together. Damn for ever. We are falling together damn together. How was I supposed to know that you didn't need me. Making a fool of myself I'm damned if I don't, damned if I do.

Tomorrow, Today, and Yesterday

Tomorrow is just like today, but slightly different from yesterday.
Can you tell the difference between the past, present and future.
Is there no relief form this life. If you want to get out alive hold on.
If you stay it won't be long until you find the other side.

Today isn't the last day, yesterday proves you can make it, and tomorrow holds something to look forward to. If you stay or if you go. I'm holding on to the inside. Burning on the inside. One single step at a time. Keep holding on when are brains are ticking like bombs. Sweet bitter words are like nothing I have heard. Deliver into your heart. Make it quick now, it's to late we are coming undone at the seems. Since I was young there has been sorrow on my tongue. Wait just a, I can't believe it's to late, starting to... it's to late, soon we anticipate what looks so strong can be so delicate.

Sickness

Can you feel that?
Oh Shit! I can't believe what has happened here.
Tell me what you did.
How this all happened.

Broken and serving your lonely.
This is slowly changes me.
There is no turning back.
The enemy is now awake.

We all have this sickness inside.
Tormenting, destoring, taking control of us.
I can see inside you, the sickness is rising.
Everything that was good  in you has died.

The world is a scary place now that you've awaken.
Open up your heart and let it flow into me.
When you dream, and when I dream.
NO sir NO sir don't do it again I'll be good I promise.
This hurts stop this sickness.

Scars

We all have scars.
We all have wounds we may not be able to hide.
We all have issues that we can't fix.

But we tear are hearts open again and again.
We try to help each other.
Compassion is in our nature.
Our weakness are sometimes we care to much.

Are scars are what make us.
We leave are hearts open.
Sometimes we need to go fix ourselves.
We've got to move on with our own lives.

Follow me down

Take your time to follow me down.
Man your moving way to slow.
It won't take anything but time.
Dazing walking the clock keeps on talking.

Gentalment and ladies all follow me down.
We are still moving way to slow.
I promise to show you around.
So just follow me.

It won't hurt. It's not dangerous.
Oh wait taking time.
Down down down we go down the rabbit hole we go.
Just fallow me down.

Seven Deadly Sins

Ones Lust takes us away. It takes everything makes us breath in the beauty of one another. Taking each other to a new level of pleasure.
Two Gluttony eat us away. Growing making us eat in everything around us. Food is your only way of life.
Three Greed overcome us. It shines and glows makes us sparkle with money. Getting us everything and anything we want.
Four Sloth stills us. Lazy not caring for anyone or anything. Not wanting for any reason to move or create anything different.
Five Wrath takes control of us. Rage moves us to the dark. Making our insides as black as tar. We feed of the anger of others.
Six Envy take over us. Jealous of others. We want to be them need to be them. To have what they have.
Seven Pride breaks us. Prideful as we are it controls us breaks us down into empty shells of ourselves.

Whore

I'm the girl your thinking about.
I'll have you begging for more.
Never escaping waking up all alone.
How can this me?

The look in your eyes.
I can be. I am the sin. I am your whore
You love me. You hate me.
All the judgment you place in gods eyes.

Take a look in the mirror.
I am the dark you created.
I am the your sin.
I am your whore.

Let me tell you.
You love me. You hate me.
I am your whore.
You love me for everything you hate me for.

I can be your whore.
A rat in a cage.
Take me away.
Here I lay.

Lay down, Stay down

You think you can save me.

My ship is sinking now.

You've got be thinking the party is over.

I can't stand the taste of your mouth.

You stay cause you think you want me.

Shame you thought you could take this from me.

Save me? Save me?

Is the party all over now?

Lay down, stay down.

Say what you want, but you want win.

Take what you want, but keep me alive.

Hey! I think I've done it all over now.

And you believe we can start it all over?

Criminal end

Criminal as I see my life go by. 

Telling me to take this one last time.

Showing me the way past all the bars.

Take me outside and ask me why.

Criminal is my mind. It will be invaded this time.

Criminal is suffering. You make me think.

All alone I fear for this.

Taking away everything. Burning my agony.

You can't hide anything.

In a world that doesn't want to know.

I want you to quicken my end.

This is more that a physical agony.

I'm trying to save myself once and for all.

Don't tell me I can not go.

No don't want to know.

You want to know you want a name.

You want to say it doesn't matter.

Now you want to know a place, a name, a moment in time. 

In a world that doesn't want to know.

I want you to quicken my end. 

Don't say it isn't so.

I gave you everything

I gave you everything. Everything but blood. 

Outside looking in my heart lies. 

I gave you everything. Everything I had.

Everything I loved. You turned away and left me here to die.

Can you tell me why?

Outside looking in my heart cries.

Show me how to care. Show me how.

Tell me how. Tell me why.

I can't take this anymore.

I gave you everything. Everything I had.

You torn away and left me here to die.

Outside looking in.... our hearts lie

All the things you hate revolve around me.

Torn apart of the seams of my dreams turn to tears. Running away trying to find a safe place to hide. You only speak with lies why can't you just speak honestly. Whispering those things in my ears that you want to hear. I'm not feeling our situation. Just back away before I snap back. Running away trying to find that safe place you can't hide. Your not feeling our situation. All the things you hate revolve around me. Just back off before I snap.

To late

One step forward two steps back I'm walking. The farther away I get from you the closer I came. Can you tell me why I always come back? Will you walk through the dark just to visit me in my home? Please wait I'm trying to come undone, but it's to late can you tell me why I'm suffocating. Chocking on your lies as I waited. I"m trying to hold to hold it together my head is like a little feather. Looks like I'm not getting better. It become to late.

Can you show me what a normal life looks like?

Can you tell me about my life?
How I was supposed to live my life?
Where I was supposed to go?
Who I was supposed to talk too?
What I was supposed to look like?
Who I was supposed to love in my life?
How I was supposed to act?
Can you show me what a normal life looks like?

They told us actions speak louder than words, but isn't it true that there actions on how they treat other people. The ones they bully into there word of normal. Doesn't that show us that being myself isn't possible and if it is we get punished for it. Living in a society that teaches us don't get bullied rather that one that don't bully. People suffer everyday with questions on how and what they should have looked like, acted like and how the should treat other people. Isn't it time we show them what we are made of. Lets start the war on treating everyone like equals. So no matter if you have body modifications, or your race, hair color, are skinny or fat, if you have a disability you can be equal on everyone around you. You shouldn't be picked on for who or what you are. As humans I'd personally hope we'd be better than this.

Seeing Tomorrow

Tomorrow is today as I wait for thee, but I am never to be seen again. Lost and alone I find my pleasure measuring up to my despair. If only you could have found me. Instead you left me here to rot by myself. You said "God would save me if I was truly savable." but what sins have I committed for this punishment to live and die alone. Was it a sin to love you, to show you compassion, to hold you in my arms while you wept no, but it was a sin to love you. If I would have not loved you I would be in the garden of my own helping the roses awaken from there slumber. I might not see tomorrow, but neither will you. (To be continued maybe tell me what you think.)

Can I be fixed?

Don't be afraid of the darkness.
Allow yourself to be hopeful.
Don't worry we can harness.
The pleasure of this pain.

Together I had us pared forever.

Until the day came where you left.

Sorrow and despair took over.

I can't be helped anymore.

Broken and forgotten.

Here I will rote away into nothing.

Every time I see you I break.

You've taken everything.

You've taken nothing.

You've taken something from my everything and turned it into nothing.

Can I be fixed?

Once upon a time

Once upon a time I swore you would have done anything

Long before I knew that no one could care.

Once upon a time you swore you could be saved.

Long before you took it all away. 

You blamed it all on the world.

It tore you apart.

Down this dark hole you traveled all alone.

Never knowing where to go.

Once upon a time I swore I had you.

Having everything tore it all apart.

Years before they took everything that I cared for.

Once upon a time I swore we had everything.

Before I got the clue.

How could I have ever known.

I'd be torn apart from everything I'd ever known.

Once upon a time I had a heart

Before you tore it all apart.

I might not know where I'm going, but I do know where I've been.

Once upon a time..